Just a quick check-in with anyone still out there.
Yet again, I’ve been trying to force myself to come on here and write something, anything. The problem is that I really don’t know what to say. I haven’t had anything to share because I haven’t made any decisions about any of the problems I’ve previously mentioned. Molly Rose Balms isn’t technically dead yet, but every day is a back-and-forth in my mind as to whether or not I should pull the plug. One minute, I’m ready to close down my shop permanently; the next, I’m ready to get back to work. It’s maddening, exhausting, and it’s getting me nowhere.
As I’m sure you know from previous posts, I don’t get out much. As in, barely at all. I’ve decided to make a few changes to my personal life to ensure that this changes. Once I’ve made them, I’ll tell you all about them. I’m afraid that that is the best I can do on that front for the time being.
In a lot of ways, I don’t feel that my situation has improved in the last seven months. I still have a feeling of hopelessness that has stayed with me constantly. I still feel that the root problem is one that I truly have to resolve on my own. I’ve finally come up with methods that I’m willing to at least try in order to have a normal life. The fact that I want to try now is the biggest change. For such a long time, I didn’t want to feel better. Now, I sometimes think it might not be such a bad idea.
I hope to have more of an update for you soon, and some kind of actual content even sooner. I haven’t been doing much cooking lately so a recipe is pretty much out of the question, but I have a fair few things I can review. Hopefully I’ll have some MRB news in a month or so.